Mate to my soul

I could go for a drink
Or maybe just a toke
Naw, I cant even sip it
And I hate the smell of smoke
Those temporary fixes
Yeah, they used to bring me ’round
But they stay way far from me
Since You set me on solid ground
The storm still rages
And that pain still lingers
But now I hit my knees
I interlace my fingers
My life isnt perfect
The hurt still comes
But I couldnt even breath
Until You gave me lungs
I couldnt cry out
Til You uncovered my sin
I was never truly born
Until I let You in
You heal every wound
You bless every scar
My heart still aches
But You’re never that far
So, I let the pain come
I know that I must
I feel every ounce
Because it’s You that I trust
That drink and that smoke
It never got me there
Not to the rock solid place
Where nothing can compare
I let the storm rage
It scares me no more
I have You at my side
It is You I adore
What else do I need?
No one else by my side
You’re all I ever wanted
Your love will never hide
You mend me up
You make me whole
My God, my Jesus
The mate to my soul
Pour out that drink
I dont want that toke
Jesus walked me thru fire
And I dont even smell like smoke

God knows your heart

“What is wrong with you? I thought you accepted Jesus, why are you still acting like this?” Does that sound like you? Yeah, it did me, too. What you are trying to do is reason with the flesh. And there is no reasoning with the flesh. Even the great disciple Paul struggled with this in Romans saying that what he doesnt want to do, he does and what he does want to do, he don’t. What he figured out is God knows our hearts, He knows our intention. Whether it is you saying it to yourself or maybe someone else is also throwing expectations at you…please know this: When you are truly saved a change does happen and it is automatic but not always visible. Your desire shifts. You start to see what needs to be corrected and you DESIRE for it to be corrected instead of just accepting it as a part of you. You won’t get it right, right off the bat. And you will never perform perfectly. But when you let Jesus in your heart then He knows your heart. He knows your desire to do better because He put it there. Pray for that desire to grow so big that it overshadows the action you are trying to correct. Then you can tell the voice in your head or in your ear…yes, I have accepted Jesus and He knows me a lot better than you do. You just let me and Jesus worry about that change!

From an empty cup

“You can’t pour from an empty cup.” Those are popular words from many self care books. Those are true words. “You must look within, see what needs healed, and love yourself before you can give out to others” are things worldly self care will teach you. You can spend a lifetime trying to fill your cup that way and it never reach overflow. The world will take and you will say “Wait! My cup isn’t full yet! I’m still thirsty! I need that for me right now! Stop taking from me!!” Me, me, me!! Do you see the problem here?

Ok, so, if we can’t pour from an empty cup then how do we fill it to overflow?

You pour God’s word into your heart. You learn His truth, love, light, and promises. You read about His love for you that is so great it makes you able to love others.

“In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.”
1John 4:10-11

The more you study the more you understand. The more you understand the more love you feel. The more love you feel the more your cup overflows.

“But whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
John 4:14

Then you know your source is true. Your source becomes your treasure. What you give out comes from your overflow of God’s love.

“The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.”
Luke 6:45

Your healing and self love come from the source that made you. Your value no longer comes from the world or how the world treats you. The temporary suffering in this world no longer restricts your gratitude or your ability to give.

“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”
Romans 5:3-5

You learn through scripture, praise, and worship that the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are ever with you. Fighting your battles. Nothing you endure is ever in vain and God will always see you through.

“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.”
Psalm 23:5

The faith of Isaac

I just watched a tik tok with a guy asking why Isaac didn’t fight back when Abraham put him on the alter. I have often wondered how Isaac felt about his dad putting him on the alter. Was his feelings hurt? Did he think his dad lost his ever lovin’ mind? This guy pointed out that Isaac could have fought back but didn’t. That means he willingly got on the alter (Just as Jesus willingly got on the cross. Also, notice how Isaac carried the wood up the mountain that was supposed to be for his sacrifice just as Jesus carried His own cross). Seeing that point of view made me realize, Isaac had his own faith. On the walk up there Isaac asked where was the sacrfice? Abraham told him God will provide. That is all Isaac needed to hear. He knew he would be fine. He knew his father was walking in God’s plan and Isaac trusted God with, quite literally, his life. I pray over my kids that they have the faith of Isaac. Their own faith. Their own relationship with God so their strength, trust, and faith don’t have to rely on me. They see me walk with God now but I am flawed. I also can’t always be with them. I pray they trust God, quite literally, with their life.

Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.
Proverbs 22:6

Lord, please give my children and grandchild the faith of Isaac. Lead me where you want me to set the example and where you want me to step back for their own faith to grow. Teach me when to speak and when to be quiet. When to step up and when to back off. I ask You to make up for the years I didn’t teach them in the way they should go. I thank You that you are able. In Christ name, Amen

So much better Your way

Why should we still hold hope for even the worst kind? Because we serve a life changing God that’s why. We are born in the likeness of Him but also of the flesh. The side that gets fed is the side that grows. You have some that feed the pleasures of the flesh and ignore God. Their flesh side grows so big that they become the people you can’t trust. They become the evil. They are the liars, the murderers, the pedophiles, and all the other things that make you say “how can a person do that?”. You have those that feed both sides equally. They are the luke warm Chrisitians. They tell people they believe but live according to what the world says is ok with limited acts that are according to the Word. These are the type that Revelation 3:15-16 talks about:
“‘I know your works: you are neither cold nor hot. Would that you were either cold or hot! So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.” They live in danger of the flesh taking over with never fully committing to God and submitting to His convictions. Then you have some that are feeding the God side and it shows in their life. They live less for the world and more for the purpose God gave them. They do the bible study, go to church, listen to praise music, stay in prayer, and immerse themselves in all of it. They do this because they have found peace in the storm. Love in the conviction. Strength in the persecution. Joy in the suffering. They received all of that because the more they absorb God, Jesus, and the Holy Ghost then the flesh has less room to thrive. God takes over! He takes the lead! Are they perfect? No, but they strive toward perfection instead of the flesh. And all they did was praise Him…

Have you lived your life full of the flesh or on the fence? Let me tell you, the minute, actually the very second you choose God, fully choose Him then that change begins. How do you allow Him to take over after so long of being in the flesh? You immerse yourself in Him. Absorb Him. Feed your spirit instead of your flesh. Seems like a lot? It really isn’t. That’s why Jesus offers us Matthew 11:28-30
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Living with the weight of the world is no way to live. Let the Lord show you a better way. A lighter way. His promises are true and unbreakable. You really can live with such a certainty. Such an absolute certainty with God as the center of your life. God chose you to be here. HE chose YOU. You are accepted and fully loved. Let Him show you the way. Won’t you choose Him today?

This is how we fight our battles

God has provided us with tools to fight our battles. It is up to us to learn those tools daily. When a battle hits we must be able to pull that tool like it is second nature. So well versed in it that it is just part of us. If we are not in the word daily then how can we expect to be able to use it when we need it? Staying in the word even when life is going our way helps us to stay trained up and proactive instead of only getting in the word as a reactive response. I would rather win the battle in the early phase instead of having to be knocked down first. It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You! This is how we fight our battles!

The enemies in me

These verses speak volumes to me. I used to read this and think of people enemies. Those people that come against you from the outside. People enemies arent my biggest foe though. Its the enemies on the inside. The ones that say the big plate of food over there will make you feel better. The one that says drinking that alcohol over there will numb it for a while. The one that says fighting back all the time will show them that youre no one to be messed with and you wont be hurt. The one that judges people or constantly remembers past hurts so you dont love like you are supposed to. Maybe you are being sent back to some addictions and bad habits as well. To me, these verse are talking about THOSE enemies. The ones within that we so often are embarrased about and try to fight on our own. Go back and read it again with those enemies in mind and understand our good, wonderful, forgiving, stronger than any mountain Lord wants to win that battle for you. Let it give you hope. You are not your bad habits. I promise they do not define you in the eyes of God. He does not see you the way the world does. He does not hold value or take it away the way the world does. He made you. He will fight for you. Take it ALL to Him with a passion for God to defeat these enemies. Have hope.

The poison in me

Love, love, love…ugh!! What’s love got to do with it, right Tina?
Wellll, only everything. Our highest commandment is to love.

Matthew 22:37-40
37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
38 This is the first and great commandment.
39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

Ok sure, I can love God and love people. Is that all I have to do? That is easy!

Is it? Anything God has commanded is not easy in our own strength. So, we go about life thinking there is something wrong with us because we can’t even live up to this simple, little commandment. It is because we can’t live up to it that Jesus died on the cross. Does that mean we don’t even have to try? Just go on living and let God’s grace abound?

Romans 6:1-2
1 What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase?
2 By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?

So, if I can’t do it in my own strength and I can’t just go on sinning then what do I do?

Man, this was a tough one for me for so long. I did not understand how to truly hand it to God and let Him open my heart back up. I closed it off long ago and sin entered my life in great abundance. How do I ever pick out all of these bad habits I Iet in? How do I ever take out the poison in me? I am like Elisha’s stew, too many poisonous gourds have been chopped up and mixed in. (2 Kings 4:38-41) Read what Elisha did. He mixed in flour that absorbed the poison so the stew was good to eat. Read Exodus 15:25 when Moses came upon water not fit to drink and God instructed him to put a piece of wood in the water. The wood absorbed the impurities and the water was fit to drink. Do you see the pattern? We don’t try to take away what is bad. We add in what is good and it absorbs the bad. What is the flour? What is the wood? Jesus and His gospel. His good news of our salvation that set us free from sin. His example of how to He handled things flawlessly. How do we add it? Immersing yourself in it. Bible study, prayer, and church service just to name a few. We feast on the word Jesus left us and before you know it, change happens. Your desire shifts. The more you immerse in it the more God reveals to you. It is truly an amazing feeling! It is so much more than what this world can ever offer! Jesus referred to Himself as the bread of life and told us if we drink of Him we will thirst no more.

John 6:35
Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”

Take in the bread of life. Let Jesus quench your spiritual thirst. Absorb Him. What do you have to lose besides the poison that has affected your life and those around you for so long?